Happy For Me

i should be happy.

i have all the reasons to be.

at long last, i finally saw the light. the rainbow after the rain. the answers to my prayers. now i can smile. forget the worries. set a new direction. start all over. the trees are bearing fruits. good news after another. really, when it rains it pours. so overwhelming. not the pain. no more the misery. but the joys. the gratitude. the faith. don't know how to begin. i'm too pre-occupied. i'll be busy. before i'll lose all the time to share, before it gets precious. see for yourself if i really have the reasons to be happy. if it's all mine to smile at:

i got hired. after almost half a year waiting. days of neck ties are here again. computer is waiting. hope they are as excited as me. think i'm gonna be wiser now. much resilient. more tolerant. i should value this chance. my third. probably the last. i miss working. i have a lots of things to make up. lots of people to thank. lots of obligations to repay. lots of favor to reciprocate. lots of dreams to rebuild.

i'm going back to manila in one week time. to wait for my employment visa. got a chance to see my family. pay visit to ex officemates and meet long time friends. i long to see them all. i know times are tough, enough to see them in flesh. even without the parties. i miss more my mother. and her well loved dishes. i wonder how my family would react to see me. after all the struggles. after all the let down. well for me nothing's changed. after all, they are my family.

and talking about family. guess its time for me to start my own. not getting any younger. hair's growing thinner. gene's getting weaker. been engaged for the longest time. glad she's not given up on me. no one else understand me more then her. her deep affections. her genuine trust. her unconditional acceptance. don't wanna be in any other place but her side. together. and i'm coming home to seal that closeness with my vows. to protect her. and love her for all eternity. you're all cordially invited.

been down for so long. now i'm up to where i should rightfully belong. it's been a humbling experience all along. i couldn't be anymore grateful.

i should be happy.

i have all the reasons to be. but you? it's april fool's day. forget everything you've just read.